jesssssiiiicaaaa

I’m mentally, emotionally, and physically exhausted. I’m tired of always fucking thinking. it’s like I can’t stop. i can’t give myself a break from it. If I’m not thinking of nice things, I’m thinking of bad things. There’s nothing in-between. It’s just happy or sad now. it’s not “okay.” I guess what counts for emotional and mental exhaustion. school is so difficult to stay in and go to now and days for me. I don’t even know why. my body is always tired because I’m always feeling what feels like thousands of different emotions at once and I’m fucking tired of it. I want to be okay. I want to be happy. I want to be sad. I want to be excited. I want to be normal. “I want you to know that I am both happy and sad and I’m still trying to figure out how that could be.” This is just so difficult. I want to be one or the other, not all of them at once.